neoevans

I've been reading her journal for ages, and watching her on DeviantArt as long as she has been there. Before that, I saw her on the Internet's biggest hole, camwhores.com of which she intelligently stopped. From the moment I saw her, I couldn't stop searching. I didn't even know why.

Recently I discovered her relationship with infinity, and after reading enough of both of their journals to understand more of their on-again, off-again relationship of the last 4 or so years, it hit me. He is me, only 8 years ago. She is the woman I obsessed over for years before meeting my now wife and mother of my 2 beautiful children. She hurts him and doesn't know why. He loves her but knows he can't help anymore by being there. She needs to know what it is to know herself, and that can't be done when someone has been in serious relationships all their life. That can only be done alone.

I almost married my Zofia, and in the end I am glad I didn't. What she did to me will forever leave me guarded in a relationship, except with my wife whom is entirely too immune. I hope Adam finds this out for himself, or Zofia figures it out without getting herself hurt in the process. She seems like the sort of tortured soul who punishes herself for existing all too often.

My heart aches thinking about it.

Best of luck, both of you.

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